My Big Mistake

A knock on my door. That's all it takes and he's in my room, pulling my waist and...FIREWORKS!! "I've been thinking about you all.night.long". I just can't believe his lips...so raw and perfect. He tasted like cinnamon sugar, something that's completely different from Chris'...I love Chris but my lips were intached with Matt's. "STOP!". i'M SORRY, I said. "This was a mistake." What the? What are you talking about?I've come here just for this moment. For you to be finally...mine" words from my best friend since kindergarten. "NO, you don't understand. I'm in love with Chris. Things have finally changed. I moved on and so will you. The past is gone, Matt. Forget about it. Please. calling off Chris was the biggest mistake so far" shrieked me. "No, it's not, Lin. Calling off this"his hand on my hips"it's the biggest mistake right now". It's true. He knows me more than I do myself. He knows where to touch me, to REALLY feel me...unlike Chris who...never bothered.And I just let him on me. The peeling of clothes, the tanned skin of his perfect body. Wow ! Has he been working out lately ? He totally has abs ! that's long shielded from his baggy clothes. All I felt was the warmth I got while he slowly but carefully touched me.

Now, everything's perfect. The door is locked. The lights are off. And Chris is gone. Only me, you and destiny. He's in me now. We're both completely naked. His touch is like Christmas. My desire for me suddenly tripled. I've known him for years and never thought for once in my life I would be in this position with him, on him. HE worked his way on me. I want him. Chris...is gone.

When the sun shone only I realized my dorm partner hasn't come back from maybe a cool party and we had made love for the entire night. Only I realized this was a mistake.

HONEST IS THE BEST POLICY

I can't believe what just happen. I hung up on my sort of boyfriend. I need a moment. I'm now officially a bitch. A slut. A wannabe loser. A heartless wolf.

Phone again.

" Matt ?"

"Ya."

" You're killing me. "

" I know. Can I come over ???"

" Yes, I want to...nvm/"

"To touch me???"

" Yes "

" Me too."

I hung up.

Okay,now I lust for the body of my bestfriend. That is not good..

Which one's the one ???

I closed the door with my back against the door. Am I a lunatic ??? I just kissed my bestfriend. The one that's been with me through almost the entire journey of my life. The one that touched my lips and showed me who I truly am...inside.

The phone rang.

"HI!!!" Um that was louder than I intended to.

"Hi....It's Chris."

"Ohhhh...Chris"

"Ya, is everything alright"

"Ya...ya,everything's fine."

"you sure ???"

"ya, totally superwoman !"

"Hey, I was wanting to ask you about toni.."

"Chris??"

"To...um ya ?"

"I...love someone else."

"???"
" Chris, are yous still there ???'
"Umm, we can't go out tonight . I'm sorry."
" I...love...you. Bye" It sounded awkward.

I hung up

I LOVE CHRIS NOT MATT !!!..DO I ???

I love Chris, don't I ??? I mean, he's the best thing ever happening to me. I....loved...him... Right ?!?? I decided to walk straight towards him facing him. He....then.....put...his...lips...on...mine.It was something else. It felt like hours but it was just seconds...He said" Today's your birthday soooooooo I got something in store for tonight =D". I was just dizzy from that luscious kiss. I'm speechless.

I walked back to my dormitory and ran into Matt. "Hi Matt", I said with a guilt in the pit of my stomach. He said."Hey sweetcakes, Been missing you. Besides, who's that touchy girl. He should be lucky I didn't punch for touching my BEST *wink* FRIEND =D". "Matt, you have to stop callig me that. I know it's our nicknames but we're not those kids anymore...Always fooling around..Trying to...love each other and that touch guy is my...boyfriend.

"What ?"

"I know I'm sorry for not telling you, I just...can't hurt your feelings because we were so attached and....

I don't know what happened then. It was like a firework raising to the sky with a BOOM !!! I.....

"I love you, Lin even when we were young. This was the...the one I missed the most when you were gone."

"I..I...."

Then, again....fireworks.


"That was the best kiss I ever had.", said Matt.

Let's give and take

I met with Chris the other day. When I almost touched his shoulders, another girl came and touched him before him. I was shocked and quickly hid behind the door. That girl is so pretty and very popular. If I'm not wrong, Chris used to fancy her. I hid my anger and walked toward them and purposely banged on the girl. The girl fell down and got.....hurt. Chris held her to the clinic hospital. I was like OMG!!! hello who is ur girlfriend !!! I thought he was going to be furious but instead, he looks like I m going to eat him.....alive !! He then said, "Wow there, cowgirl !!! You are strong ". I juz laughed and kept walking until I banged the principal. He said, Watch ur step, cowgirl. I was curious why lately, people's been calling me "COWGIRL". I dun know wat was happening until I saw an ad saying, EIKLIN'S GONNA DRINK MILK EVERYDAY BECOZ' SHE'S BEEN MILKING THE COW SO HER NICKNAME IS NOW COWGIRL. FOR ANYONE WHO CALLED HER THAT NICKNAME ON 20ND SEPTEMBER(WHICH IS TODAY) WE R GOING TO GIVE 5$ SO C'MON. WE WILL BE WATCHING UR SCENE!!!! After reading, now i know wat is happening why everyone is so awkward but I dun understand why Chris has to act too over like he doesn't. Shito. Today is my birthday some more why everybody is making fun of me on my birthday. This is not the best day that have been happening

Girl Next Door

The next day, I met with Rachel. Unfortunately, she didn't come so did Santhiya.I was so sad so I ran to the Girl's room . I can't believe that I'm the one that ruin this friendship. It was suppose to turn out good not bad. What have I done to be punished in this way ? I never wanted this. I decided to go quit. Looks like I need to find a new man to go to the prom. Haih. So frustrating. Now let's go and tell the girls the good news. (for them not me).I went to their house and ponteng college school YESZ NO H/m and I saw a new girl next door. She was heepy-dressed, not the kinda look u see everyday but it will do. I introduced myself to her POLITELY and she ignored me SWEAT so I turned back and said'' EE BELAGAK BETUL SOMBONG MEMANG USELESS TAK APALAH SAYA KAN LOOK LEBIH BAGUS DARIPADA DIA CHEH BELAGAK DOH" OOPS TOO MUCH INFORMATION well nvm part of the story werr..then I turned again""AYO PENING KEPALA TAU"" I saw two of my bestfriends with two guys lying around singing TWINKLE,TWINKLE,LITTLE STAR" CHILDISH BETUL loos like they were their TRUELOVE XD noe they got a prom dat ya for them but I must forgive 1st before I can talk to them emm NOWAY I GOT MY OWN PRORITIES TO THINK ABOUT

Blind Date

When I told him about it, his reaction was....fine. He was okay with it. looks like I'm scare for nothing but one problem thogh, what am I going to do with Matt. Then suddenly an idea popped out of my head. Let me give my girlfriends a taste of their own medicine. I will set Rachel and Matt on blind date. Will Matt accept my invite? Hmmm hard to guess. He's really a bighead. You don't know if you don't try, so I asked him directly .Without knowing it, he agrees and I'm excited. So I tole rachel and she cried. Outside I was sorry But inside YES!!!!!!!!! After school , I brought her shopping. She was happy with the chiffon dress but not so happy with the guy. I felt sad for her.I never thought she will react in such a stupid way. In the meantime, San was all fired up with anger. She was trying to crush me with her .......( Don't try this at home)We went back after that. That night was the night I was waiting for. The Blind Date. Waaaaaahahaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!! At the end of the day, it tuned out U.Gle (ugly) Rac was all cries. I wad supposed to wait for a happy ending not a bad one. I was not happy. I called Matt to see what happened since Rac won't tell me anything. Ha said " Sorry sweetcakes but I only........you(dun say this to ur bestfriend)I shocked and off the telephone Don't tell me he said this to her. If she did, It could meant REJECTION. WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN NOWWWWWWWWW??