My love

'Why'.said Matt.
'You know I can't, Matt. It's not right'
'What the hell are you talking about ?''That' was not right.
'What we did...was not right."

A long silence.

'That was the best night I ever had'. Matt looked away.
'Me too..'
Before I knew it, he with all his might kiss me.
I kissed back because it's the only thing I want right now.
'I love you'
'I...'
And he kissed me.
'I'm not gonna force you if you don't wanna say it'
'I love you'

the CLASH

"Did you break up with me ?" said Chris while at the back of the bleachers where we used to make up without anybody noticing.
"Of course not !" said me . The stupid ass-telling liar !
"then, why didn't you reply my calls yesterday ?"
"I wasn't free."
"Matt didn't come back to his dorm last night."
"Ohh..."
"Was...he..with you last night?"
"How did you know he didn't come back?"
"I'm the dorm counselor.Answer me " He was on my now. He placed his hand on my waist that made me closer to him. "Was he with you last night?"

"YES !" SAID Matt.HE came. "We were together last night." Oh no OH no
"Wait" said me. "Yes Chris he was with me last night but nothing happened.
MAtt gave me the look. THe why-don't-you-tell-him-look.
"oh ok then. Baby you know I trust you and he...kissed me in front of Matt !!!
From the corner of my eye, Matt looked away.
"we've gotta get to class. C'mon Lin. We're going."

And I walked out with Matt. He wasn't happy.

My Big Mistake

A knock on my door. That's all it takes and he's in my room, pulling my waist and...FIREWORKS!! "I've been thinking about you all.night.long". I just can't believe his lips...so raw and perfect. He tasted like cinnamon sugar, something that's completely different from Chris'...I love Chris but my lips were intached with Matt's. "STOP!". i'M SORRY, I said. "This was a mistake." What the? What are you talking about?I've come here just for this moment. For you to be finally...mine" words from my best friend since kindergarten. "NO, you don't understand. I'm in love with Chris. Things have finally changed. I moved on and so will you. The past is gone, Matt. Forget about it. Please. calling off Chris was the biggest mistake so far" shrieked me. "No, it's not, Lin. Calling off this"his hand on my hips"it's the biggest mistake right now". It's true. He knows me more than I do myself. He knows where to touch me, to REALLY feel me...unlike Chris who...never bothered.And I just let him on me. The peeling of clothes, the tanned skin of his perfect body. Wow ! Has he been working out lately ? He totally has abs ! that's long shielded from his baggy clothes. All I felt was the warmth I got while he slowly but carefully touched me.

Now, everything's perfect. The door is locked. The lights are off. And Chris is gone. Only me, you and destiny. He's in me now. We're both completely naked. His touch is like Christmas. My desire for me suddenly tripled. I've known him for years and never thought for once in my life I would be in this position with him, on him. HE worked his way on me. I want him. Chris...is gone.

When the sun shone only I realized my dorm partner hasn't come back from maybe a cool party and we had made love for the entire night. Only I realized this was a mistake.

HONEST IS THE BEST POLICY

I can't believe what just happen. I hung up on my sort of boyfriend. I need a moment. I'm now officially a bitch. A slut. A wannabe loser. A heartless wolf.

Phone again.

" Matt ?"

"Ya."

" You're killing me. "

" I know. Can I come over ???"

" Yes, I want to...nvm/"

"To touch me???"

" Yes "

" Me too."

I hung up.

Okay,now I lust for the body of my bestfriend. That is not good..

Which one's the one ???

I closed the door with my back against the door. Am I a lunatic ??? I just kissed my bestfriend. The one that's been with me through almost the entire journey of my life. The one that touched my lips and showed me who I truly am...inside.

The phone rang.

"HI!!!" Um that was louder than I intended to.

"Hi....It's Chris."

"Ohhhh...Chris"

"Ya, is everything alright"

"Ya...ya,everything's fine."

"you sure ???"

"ya, totally superwoman !"

"Hey, I was wanting to ask you about toni.."

"Chris??"

"To...um ya ?"

"I...love someone else."

"???"
" Chris, are yous still there ???'
"Umm, we can't go out tonight . I'm sorry."
" I...love...you. Bye" It sounded awkward.

I hung up

I LOVE CHRIS NOT MATT !!!..DO I ???

I love Chris, don't I ??? I mean, he's the best thing ever happening to me. I....loved...him... Right ?!?? I decided to walk straight towards him facing him. He....then.....put...his...lips...on...mine.It was something else. It felt like hours but it was just seconds...He said" Today's your birthday soooooooo I got something in store for tonight =D". I was just dizzy from that luscious kiss. I'm speechless.

I walked back to my dormitory and ran into Matt. "Hi Matt", I said with a guilt in the pit of my stomach. He said."Hey sweetcakes, Been missing you. Besides, who's that touchy girl. He should be lucky I didn't punch for touching my BEST *wink* FRIEND =D". "Matt, you have to stop callig me that. I know it's our nicknames but we're not those kids anymore...Always fooling around..Trying to...love each other and that touch guy is my...boyfriend.

"What ?"

"I know I'm sorry for not telling you, I just...can't hurt your feelings because we were so attached and....

I don't know what happened then. It was like a firework raising to the sky with a BOOM !!! I.....

"I love you, Lin even when we were young. This was the...the one I missed the most when you were gone."

"I..I...."

Then, again....fireworks.


"That was the best kiss I ever had.", said Matt.

Let's give and take

I met with Chris the other day. When I almost touched his shoulders, another girl came and touched him before him. I was shocked and quickly hid behind the door. That girl is so pretty and very popular. If I'm not wrong, Chris used to fancy her. I hid my anger and walked toward them and purposely banged on the girl. The girl fell down and got.....hurt. Chris held her to the clinic hospital. I was like OMG!!! hello who is ur girlfriend !!! I thought he was going to be furious but instead, he looks like I m going to eat him.....alive !! He then said, "Wow there, cowgirl !!! You are strong ". I juz laughed and kept walking until I banged the principal. He said, Watch ur step, cowgirl. I was curious why lately, people's been calling me "COWGIRL". I dun know wat was happening until I saw an ad saying, EIKLIN'S GONNA DRINK MILK EVERYDAY BECOZ' SHE'S BEEN MILKING THE COW SO HER NICKNAME IS NOW COWGIRL. FOR ANYONE WHO CALLED HER THAT NICKNAME ON 20ND SEPTEMBER(WHICH IS TODAY) WE R GOING TO GIVE 5$ SO C'MON. WE WILL BE WATCHING UR SCENE!!!! After reading, now i know wat is happening why everyone is so awkward but I dun understand why Chris has to act too over like he doesn't. Shito. Today is my birthday some more why everybody is making fun of me on my birthday. This is not the best day that have been happening