My love

'Why'.said Matt.
'You know I can't, Matt. It's not right'
'What the hell are you talking about ?''That' was not right.
'What we did...was not right."

A long silence.

'That was the best night I ever had'. Matt looked away.
'Me too..'
Before I knew it, he with all his might kiss me.
I kissed back because it's the only thing I want right now.
'I love you'
'I...'
And he kissed me.
'I'm not gonna force you if you don't wanna say it'
'I love you'

the CLASH

"Did you break up with me ?" said Chris while at the back of the bleachers where we used to make up without anybody noticing.
"Of course not !" said me . The stupid ass-telling liar !
"then, why didn't you reply my calls yesterday ?"
"I wasn't free."
"Matt didn't come back to his dorm last night."
"Ohh..."
"Was...he..with you last night?"
"How did you know he didn't come back?"
"I'm the dorm counselor.Answer me " He was on my now. He placed his hand on my waist that made me closer to him. "Was he with you last night?"

"YES !" SAID Matt.HE came. "We were together last night." Oh no OH no
"Wait" said me. "Yes Chris he was with me last night but nothing happened.
MAtt gave me the look. THe why-don't-you-tell-him-look.
"oh ok then. Baby you know I trust you and he...kissed me in front of Matt !!!
From the corner of my eye, Matt looked away.
"we've gotta get to class. C'mon Lin. We're going."

And I walked out with Matt. He wasn't happy.

My Big Mistake

A knock on my door. That's all it takes and he's in my room, pulling my waist and...FIREWORKS!! "I've been thinking about you all.night.long". I just can't believe his lips...so raw and perfect. He tasted like cinnamon sugar, something that's completely different from Chris'...I love Chris but my lips were intached with Matt's. "STOP!". i'M SORRY, I said. "This was a mistake." What the? What are you talking about?I've come here just for this moment. For you to be finally...mine" words from my best friend since kindergarten. "NO, you don't understand. I'm in love with Chris. Things have finally changed. I moved on and so will you. The past is gone, Matt. Forget about it. Please. calling off Chris was the biggest mistake so far" shrieked me. "No, it's not, Lin. Calling off this"his hand on my hips"it's the biggest mistake right now". It's true. He knows me more than I do myself. He knows where to touch me, to REALLY feel me...unlike Chris who...never bothered.And I just let him on me. The peeling of clothes, the tanned skin of his perfect body. Wow ! Has he been working out lately ? He totally has abs ! that's long shielded from his baggy clothes. All I felt was the warmth I got while he slowly but carefully touched me.

Now, everything's perfect. The door is locked. The lights are off. And Chris is gone. Only me, you and destiny. He's in me now. We're both completely naked. His touch is like Christmas. My desire for me suddenly tripled. I've known him for years and never thought for once in my life I would be in this position with him, on him. HE worked his way on me. I want him. Chris...is gone.

When the sun shone only I realized my dorm partner hasn't come back from maybe a cool party and we had made love for the entire night. Only I realized this was a mistake.